spring thaw.

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The ice of winter has finally thawed. I have thawed.

We seemingly skipped spring and have already arrived at summer.

I intended to write more in this post, for my sake (and yours, I suppose), about our days, but to sum it up, in no particular order: we got our roof replaced (there goes our tax return – whee!), we fixed and replaced our kitchen floor (with a wonderful visit from my in-laws!), we had a wonderful weekend visit from some dear friends from Illinois, we all got hit with mono in different forms (and way less severe than I remember mono being when we were kids), I am in desperate need of new hearing aids (remember these? they’re almost ten years old and yes, gave me the same problems for the last ten years) at about $3K each, I watched a few more Best Picture Winner movies (I have a goal of watching all the films that won the Academy Award and have nearly finished the list), I am finally finished with my spring courses and only have two more classes in the fall before receiving my official DHH teacher certificate, we got rid of our crazy rooster Bob, school is nearly done for the year, and we are gearing up for summer! As I already mentioned, summer apparently arrived already. Our family has already enjoyed several dinners on the back porch, BBQing, homemade lemonade, splashing in the water spicket (and kiddie pool), blowing dandelions, running around outside, etc. I’m so excited to explore more of the outdoors with the child — we will even attempt tent camping!

On a personal note regarding my faith, I realized a majority of books, studies, messages, etc. from people who call themselves Christians are not always theologically-sound and may have been entwined with false teachings. Due to this realization and my desire to know God as much as I can, I have been incredibly focused on studying the Word more in-depth than before. I set up a separate blog detailing my realization/journey and guidance for other women to discern for themselves, but won’t publish/share it until I feel ready. I’ll continue to write in both spaces.

books read since the last post:

Counter Culture by David Platt
Growing Up Social: Raising Relational Kids in a Screen-Driven World by Gary Chapman
The Life-Giving Home by Sally Clarkson
Dumbing Us Down by John Taylor Gatto
Last Child in the Woods by Richard Louv
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That’s all I feel like writing about today. Love to you all. 🙂

Spring in Winter. [646-700]

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In keeping up with my word of the year (authentic), let me just tell you — yep, life is definitely different. And in all the hustle and bustle of having an adorable, demanding newborn and a new job, it leaves very little time for myself. On those rare occasions that the baby decides to take a nap for an hour or my husband is home to hold him for a bit, I’m able to get some meals cooked and rooms cleaned. But otherwise, I apparently exist for other people now — mainly, my little boy.

You know what? That’s OK. I want to be there for him as much as I can. And I absolutely adore seeing him explore. Right now, he enjoys putting things in his mouth (usually his hands) and watching the world around him. This week, he rolled over! He is reminding me to slow down. I will still hustle through my days, but I am starting to find a balance with slow moments too. There’s a new rhythm. I’m learning it.

Otherwise, life is good. Since my last post, my parents came to visit (and meet) our little boy, we traded a rooster we hatched last summer for three new hens (our growing flock), I’ve been eating and feeling better, I started my new job, baby started daycare, it snowed briefly, and then has been a very early & warm spring so far (although we are expecting the end of winter is hiding, waiting to blast us with cold).

So, keeping track of the things I’m thankful for? Not that easy. But I will keep trying to jot down what I can remember! I am so thankful for all the good & beautiful things these days. There have been a lot of them…. and I feel a shift inside myself. A shift out of this funk I’ve had for the last couple years, back into the free-spirited joyful person with lots of goals — but on a different level.

Today is one of those days when I’m super motivated to conquer everything. I don’t know how long this feeling will last – but it’s lasted most of the week…. and I’m eager to put a few things into motion this year if I create the time….

My recent list:

646. a quiet New Year’s Eve with friends. 647. my first glass of wine in nearly a year! 648. sleeping in. 649. strangers knocking on my door to let us know the coop was on fire. 650. water. 651. the county fire department’s quick response. 652. all chickens still being safe, sound, and alive. 653. my husband’s hard work on the coop — before and after the fire. 654. going back to work — although bittersweet. 655. cute baby clothes. 656. healthy, growing baby! 657. snow day! 658. having time to actually cook a meal for myself and eat it. 659. quiet, fluffy snow blanketing the trees in white. 660. pets behaving well. 661. baby napping in his crib well. 662. soup. 663. minty chocolate cookies in the fridge. 664. unexpected rest. 665. clean, warm clothes out of the dryer. 666. crisp, clear starry sky. 667. sunlight streaming in the house on a bright, cold January morning. 668. quiet moments when everyone is home! 669. handmade embroidery gift. 670. hand-painted gift. 671. full moon illuminating the dark night. 672. unseasonably warm weather. 673. my green Corkcicle tumbler keeping coffee warm for hours. 674. finding a basic desk for a great price! 675. having a little corner again to write. 676. organizing things into wire baskets. 677. starting my new job and loving it! 678. helpful, friendly new coworkers. 679. baby meeting his grandfather & aunt for the first time (already met grandmother)! 680. Bourbon distillery tour. 681. having my family here in Kentucky. 682. foggy morning sunrise view over a playground. 683. warm sunshine day in early February. 684. sun on my face giving us a taste of spring to come soon. 685. baby reaching out for toys. 686. baby smiling intentionally at people. 687. baby sleeping all night. 688. husband having a night off work. 689. baby’s first line dance! 690. shakeology shakes. 691. hula hooping outside for the first time in months! 692. finding a good home for one of our roosters. 693. acquiring more chickens. 693. brown eggs! 694. lemon raspberry cheesecake from cheesecake factory. 695. my happy planner arriving in the mail! 696. flock of birds flying across the morning sky. 697. earlier sunrises. 698. brighter mornings. 699. baby rolling over!! 700. waking up, excited for the day.

Have a wonderful weekend. ❤

End of the year. [601-645]

I had a whole post typed up about why it didn’t really feel like Christmas for us this year. It was full of a lot of rambling emotion and more information than you probably needed. Upon reading it, I realized that it wasn’t something I wanted to dwell on or remember in the future, so I erased it.

I was still happy about Christmas. My favorite time of the year. And I’m thankful for my family doing their best to share a little Christmas with us this year, even from miles away (this was my first Christmas away from ‘home’). And I’m thankful that my husband did not work on Christmas (he worked over Thanksgiving) so we were able to enjoy the holiday together, the three of us, our new little family.

I’m looking forward to the year ahead. Praying that it will be an easier year than the last two. Praying that next year will bring more joys and successes than the last two. Praying for peace. Praying for calm. Praying for positive change.

And with that, here the final gifts I thought to note for 2016….

601. gingerbread cookies. 602. foggy morning. 603. sliver of sunlight at the end of the day. 604. kisses upon soft baby cheeks. 605. white holiday lights. 606. magazines in the mail. 607. fleece leggings. 608. slippers. 609. warm electric blanket. 610. peppermint candy. 611. fluffy, cozy black cat being a sleepy bum. 612. jealous dog love. 613. first snowflakes on the ground. 614. peppermint fudge. 615. peppermint mocha. 616. smile in my baby’s eyes. 617. swaddle blankets. 618. strong mama hen surviving a fight with a predator. 619. chickens taking care of each other. 620. finding baby chick alive after thinking it was dead. 621. holiday brunch with dear people. 622. warm, sticky cinnamon rolls. 623. holiday dinner with a group of wonderful people. 624. lovely house all decked out for the holidays. 625. wintergreen. 626. white fir. 627. clean baby after a bath. 628. baby sleeping a lot at night. 629. unusual sixty-degree day sandwiched between two cold days. 630. cinnamon-scented pine cone decorations. 631. icy imprints of frozen leaves. 632. husband working long hours to keep us financially afloat. 633. marvelous Christmas program performed by the kids at my church. 634. real smiles from my little baby! 635. Kyle being home for not just one but three days! 636. baby being awake for longer periods of time and interacting a bit. 637. friends that have become family. 638. light flurries on Christmas. 639. strange warm weather being a tease. 640. clearing out clutter. 641. packages arriving through the mail. 642. Costco membership again! 643. quick coffee. 644. hope for the year ahead. 645. having this place to write….

Cheers. ❤