one thousand gifts · personal happiness

Too Many To Count. [770-1000]



770. arriving to our destination safely with dog and baby in the car. 771. seeing our families. 772. sweet zoo surprise from an online friend across the country. 773. cool, rainy day for temporary relief from the hot weather. 774. checking items off my list. 775. summer break. […] 995. my little boy crawling! 996. his tiny hands on my face, to get my attention. 997. his infectious laugh. 998. bright orange sunrise over misty fields of horses. 999. having my job. 1000. an abundance of blessings. so many.

So. It looks like I cheated a bit by not listing items 776 through 994…. but here’s the thing, in that huge span of time, there have been so many, endless blessings. Many of them through my sweet, precious boy who brings me joy through his own joy at the world around him. His laugh is the best thing ever! Many blessings through my husband, my parents, my family, my friends, my church, my coworkers, everyone…. and God.  Because that’s from whom all blessings flow. Everything I have is a gift. Everything I don’t have is still a gift. And everything on this earth that is beautiful is still only temporary. But because it’s temporary, I am trying to cherish the good and beautiful things that are here while they are while simultaneously fixing my sights on what is unseen. But I also wanted to step away from this feeling of “I have to write this down” or “get this done.” So, another reason I decided to skip the list. I know what’s out there. I know what the gifts are. I am looking for them constantly. Noticing them all the time. Noticing what a beautiful life this is. And being thankful for where I am and who my savior is…..

In the midst of all of this wonderfulness that I just wrote about, I have also felt frazzled, pulled apart in many directions, tired, unsure of who I am, angry, exhausted, overwhelmed, and did I mention tired? It’s been brought to my attention lately (through words from others, scripture, songs, books) that I need to change something. Remember how I used to be so focused on simplicity? Simplicity became messy and full…. and not in a good way. Time to get back to that. I like full — but not the nasty, soul-sucking kind of full. I want fullness in joy. Fullness in life. Fullness in peace. In love. In God.

I am going to try to be more intentional with this short life I have.

I also want to write. But there is so much to do and only so little time and a little boy that needs to be to there for him. This is not my time to write. This is my time to be. I’d like to soak up every moment that I can, especially with my child. And he is only on loan, not mine forever. And I need to work on my relationship with Jesus, my husband, and family, everyone in my life, and taking care of myself, as well.

Cheers, friends. Much love to you, always.

one thousand gifts

sun’s up, flowers smile. [701-769]

Gosh. How many times have I said that time flies? Because, dang, it does fly by. Quick! And now, I have a happy, curious six and a half month-old little boy that brings so much joy to my life. I still cannot believe it! And it’s spring! The grass has been mowed several times (successfully this year!), plants are growing, bees are buzzing, everything smells like nature and I’m a week away from summer break. Wow.

I am full of so many thoughts and things to say, but always short on time. Or rather, I need to use this time to do other things. So here’s another short post with just a list of only the few gifts I remembered to write down in the hundreds more beautiful gifts I have. Maybe next time I’ll get around to sharing all my thoughts. Maybe. 🙂

701. trip to IKEA. 702. seeing old friends. 703. meeting their sweet little boy. 704. little boy being kind to my baby. 705. always having a supply of fresh eggs. 706. women’s potluck at church. 707. being with many kind women. 708. baby laughing at new faces. 709. an afternoon catching up with friends. 710. being exhausted from a full weekend. 711. exposing baby to some watercolor art! 712. Mema and Papa visiting. 713. having a safer door on our house. 714. meeting baby goats! 715. Italian Beef sandwiches from Chicago. 716. tax refund giving us a bit of temporary financial relief. 717. paying off our truck! 718. lunch with a friend. 719. the end of the workday on a Friday afternoon. 720. friendly chickens. 721. freshly laid mulch. 722. brewery night with friends. 723. first time out with the baby, aside from dinner. 724. baby enjoying being out and then sleeping during the noise. 725. raspberry beer. 726. dog happy to be outside in the sun. 727. lazy Sunday afternoon. 728. green buds on trees. 729. flowers showing up. 730. taste of Spring! 731. smell of flowers! 732. baby belly laughs. 733. baby consistently smiling every time I walk into the room (awww)! 734. baby starting to sit up! 735. salamander on the doorframe. 736. brilliant sunrise. 737. big, green luna moth on the door. 738. trees in full bloom. 739. flowers on all the trees. 740. smell of spring. 741. sunrise peeking up, painting purple and pinks in the sky before disappearing as an orange haze behind the clouds for the day. 742. remembering to do something! 743. baby lambs frolicking in the fields. 744. teacher appreciation week. 745. waffle breakfasts. 746. surplus bagels from Panera. 747. water with lemon. 748. baby sitting comfortably on his own! 749. baby trying food and enjoying it. 750. seeing my little one get so excited about everything. 751. iced coffee. 752. warm enough for sandals. 753. laughter and connection in my small group. 754. pumpkin muffins. 755. baby being happy to see me. 756. peaches with cottage cheese. 757. new, clear sunglasses. 758. random snacks and treats at work. 759. grace upon grace upon grace. 760. Jeremiah 29:11. 761. Isaiah 55. 762. freshly mowed grass. 763. job security. 764. inclusion. 765. work luncheon. 766. rainbow striped pajama pants. 767. small group gathering to pray on our knees. 768. post-it notes. 769. blank pages.