Yep. You read that right. I’m breaking up with my life list.
My life list showed what I wanted to do in my life, what I had done, and what I was working on. I looked at it often to relish some of my accomplishments while planning for future ones. I shared it with others to initiate conversation. I relied on it to remind myself to do something.
I was inspired by others to create my life list and my list has inspired other people to create their own. But lately? I feel a little sad when I look at it. The same things have been crossed off for months. The same things are left undone. The things left undone will not happen anytime soon. I don’t even care if I do some of those things anymore and other things I’d like to do now are not on that list. It’s ever-changing. All I see when I look at the physical list is a giant to-do list. It overwhelms me because it never goes away. I don’t want that feeling. I need to make it go away.
If I really want to do something, I will remember it. I don’t need it written out. Compiling a list of exotic things to do and crossing things off will not make my life any more interesting. The quality of my life does not depend on how many things I do; it depends on how I live. It depends on how I treat others. It depends on how I treat myself. It depends on what I do and say in my daily interactions. It depends on each moment.
I only have one main goal now: to live each day.